Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts

Saturday, April 4, 2015

When the Going Gets... Sick?

This last week, we saw a little bit of illness in our family... okay, maybe not a little bit. My dear E-Mae has had an eye infection, ear infection, and sinus infection. My poor baby was in and out of the Dr, other than a well-child check up, for the first time in her life.

Ella at the height of her infections: miserable, hurting and extra needy

What did I do to help her?

I stayed home from school and we just cuddled. For 3 days, she wouldn't let me put her down. She would make me take a nap with her and after 30 minutes of laying down, if I got up, she would cry until I came back and laid down again.

Is it bad that I actually enjoyed the attention from a baby?

NO!

Every mommy wants to feel loved! Every mommy wants to know she is enough and she is doing well. No. I am not saying purposefully get your children sick so they will cuddle with you and never let you go.

But when they do get sick, don't worry about the laundry being done immediately. Don't worry about the messes being cleaned up as quickly as possible. Don't worry about cleaning up the dinner plates until after your child goes to bed. That time together builds that bond which every little child is looking for. They want to know that they will be taken care of when they are not feeling good!

So, this is my call to mommies! Put down that scrub brush! Put down those clothes! Stop vacuuming and dusting! Go pick up you child and walk outside! Go bond! Go have fun! Have the same time you have when your little one is sick. Don't just wait for them to get sick to put them ahead of the house work.

You are a mom of a little child... the house is never going to be perfect... Your "little scientist" is too busy exploring and taking things apart. It's never going to be 100% clean... ever! Save stuff for once a week or just do it when your little one is asleep. Your child needs your attention!

Now... Don't think I am a hypocrite! I am not home with my daughter because I am the sole provider for our little family of 2 and I am going to school full time so by the time she is 5, and going to kindergarten, I will be graduated with my Master's degree. That is pretty cool to me! And those moms who are working and doing all they can for their children, that is absolutely amazing to me! I know your struggle being away from your children and the desire you have to be with them! They are so grateful for you and they will know your sacrifice for them! You are an amazing mom too!

I am just grateful I was able to be home to take care of my baby squirell while she was sick! She is an amazing little girl and I am so blessed to have the time I do with her!

Does anybody have any ideas for toddler activities?

Or maybe places to visit with toddlers?

Please comment below!


Monday, March 23, 2015

How Do I Love Me??

People probably don't know this, but I don't have the best self-esteem. Actually, that is an understatement. There have actually been times where I have truly HATED myself. I have felt so down and in such darkness that I have shut people out, I have turned from God, and have refused to try and find the hope in myself again.

Through my journey of self loathing and disgust, I allowed myself to start gaining more and more weight. This didn't make anything better! This made me feel 200x worse than before!!

How could I possibly be worth something at over 200lbs? 

And worst of all, today, when I was feeling happy and so high on life and actually enjoying me, the only pair of pants which actually fit me decided to rip. The one pair I didn't have to fight with my fat butt to try to get on! Rather than conceding and just moving up a pant size and giving in to the worthless feelings I have been feeling, I have decided to take my life back. 


ITS MY TURN TO BE HAPPY AND TO FEEL CONFIDENT AND AMAZING WITH MY OWN SKIN!! 

Everyone else gets to! Why not me?

No. This does not mean I am going to start dressing immodestly or trashy to prove I am comfortable in my own skin! That is not how I am going to feel better. How could it when my only goal right now is to get my daughter and myself to the temple? How would that help me progress in my spirituality and provide me the necessary strength I need to overcome my depressive state?

I am not saying that I am suffering from depression, but just not allowing my own mind to conceive happiness at this time. I have heard someone close to me say, "How could someone overweight ever truly be happy?" That there has hit me really hard. How can I be happy when I wear a size 16 pant, weigh 206lbs, and have a double chin?

News flash!!! IM NOT!!!

How does that that change though? Today is the day I am starting fresh! Tomorrow I shall be starting my 3rd Advocare cleanse. This time, everything is done by the book!! No cheating for me (which is really hard because I really like my snacks) I am going to be working out every single day, whether it be racquetball, walking, or just random dancing in my room. Who cares as long as I am up and moving, right? I cannot keep living this sedentary lifestyle. It is messing with my self esteem and my motivation levels for everything in life, including school. I noticed that when I am moving, I feel better. 

Here is me today, on Day 1:





For me and my daughter, I WILL lose weight and I WILL feel good! This is a fights that Satan is going to lose and from here on out, I choose to be happy!


Does anybody have any suggestions on healthy meals?

What about ways to get me moving?

Any advice that will KEEP me motivated?