Thursday, September 25, 2014

Long Time, No Post

Hello beautiful people of the internet! I just wanted to check in on how our life is going:

E-Mae:

My beautiful baby girl is already over a year old. She is the light of my life and I have not had to leave her home with mom this entire time. Her and I have become so close that I absolutely hate being away from her. People have come in and out of my life, but E-Mae is someone that would rather stay with Mommy than without. I absolutely love spending time with her! I cannot imagine a life without her! I have been able to spend every day with my Princess because I have not been to school or work... which leads me to my next category
E-Mae on her 1st birthday eating her cupcake :D


School:

I am attending school at Utah State University-Eastern in my hometown of  Price, Utah. I am so lucky to be taking these classes this year. I am taking 12 credit hours this semester. That is good because if I take the same amount of classes next semester, I can graduate with my associates and move on towards any degree I want to achieve next. This is not only for me, but for my E-Mae. School is not my forte. I understand most of the materials, but if you knew me in high school, I do not like homework. I know... homework is part of life. But I really don't like it at all! This semester has been different, however. I have been doing all of my homework early on for the first time in my adult life. I am so proud of myself. I know... bragging is not a very good quality in a girl, but I really am impressed with myself! I have put my best foot forward and have been trying to do all I can to get good grades so I can transfer into a good program later on down the road.

As of right now, I am on the road to graduating and then I am moving on to earn my teaching degree. Depending on a few situations which I am dealing with at the moment, I will adjust what type of degree I will pursue. That may be coming in a post some time in the future. I am hoping a few things turn out how I need/want them to but one can never be too sure. My thoughts are either Elementary Education, Special Education, or English as a Second Language teaching. Those are just thoughts though. I am not sure what the future holds for me. That is something I am going to have to take one day at a time.
E-Mae and me after my first long day of school


Work:

That's right people! I finally have another job. After not having work for over a year and a half, I finally decided it was my duty to go find a job to be able to provide for my daughter. She is definitely my motivation for doing all that I can to be a great mother and a provider since I am now in charge of doing both. I applied for a couple jobs, but I only got one call to come in for an interview. I went into CaptionCall, took a typing test, took a dictation test, and then went into an interview with the manager. (FYI: I was so nervous that I wouldn't get the job, but I stayed calm and relaxed) I walked out of there, took a drug test (because they don't want people on drugs to be running around their business, making a muck of things) and I got the job a few days later.

Training was kind of rough. They always have to prepare you for every situation so it is harder than the work is. I had kind of a hard time graduating for some reason. It took me 2 weeks and 2 days. (I needed to graduate training by that day because I had a test in a class I had never been to because of work) but now, it is my second week of pure calls. I absolutely love it! Between calls, I have the opportunity to finish a lot of my homework, which helps with my grades and my focus.

Spirituality:

Lately I have been growing closer to my Heavenly Father, It has been such a great experience! Since I haven't had training, I have been able to go to an institute class and have been able to learn more about my Father and all he would like me to know. The spirit I can feel when at the institute is so comforting and happy that I feel at peace. I think that is why I love being there so much. I just feel at peace. Sometimes there are a few times where I just feel out of my element, but generally, I am able to feel the spirit of joy. I do not know where I would go during the middle of the day if I did not have the institute where I could go. My classes and work are on such a weird, crazy schedule that I would just be sitting in my car all day if I could not go there. I don't really feel as good anywhere else as I do sitting in the midst of like minded young people who are so accepting.

I have been working with a friend to start studying by topic every week in our scriptures and with general conference talks. It is going to bring me to feel the spirit in a way that I don't know if I have felt in a long time. Yes, personal study is great and I love being able to study at my own rate, but it is also easier to do my reading when I have someone to be accountable to and easy to understand when I have someone else to bounce ideas off of and to illuminate my mind with their thoughts and insights.

and last but certainly not least:

My Health:

No, I have not lost any weight in the past year, but that is okay. I love my body and I am trying not to focus on the outward appearance very much. I do want to lose a little to be able to feel good about myself. I have started selling AdvoCare and started using it. In my first 10-day cleanse, I lost a good 10+ pounds and was able to keep it off. I love my Spark in the morning and being able to go through the day without having a total meltdown of exhaustion (since I wake up at 4 am every day and have hardly any breaks between work and school.) I also have a friend who wants to go workout with me whenever I can, so that will definitely help me! I can't wait to see results and being able to feel better about myself and learn to love myself more!

So, now that we have covered all of those... I think the next thing I should do is... Give you pictures of our year!! :D
E-Mae and her Bompa. She absolutely loves him!!

E-Mae sleeping in the hotel after her 1st day of Disney

E-Mae in Disneyland!

Me and my nephew Damien Duncan in Disneyland

E-Mae, Me, and my best friend, Fonnesy

E-Mae and mommy after school

E-Mae likes to be super comfy :D Puts her feet up :D























Friday, March 21, 2014

Dear E-Mae

My Dearest Little Angel,

You are such a wonderful, special, beautiful girl! I am so lucky to have you in my life and to be able to call you my daughter! There is nothing that could make me love you more, or love you less! You make me so happy and feel so blessed!

Two days ago, I was blessed to be able to feel your first tooth come in! I was so excited that I ran up the stairs, carrying you, woke up Bompa and told him the news. As soon as we came back downstairs, I called Namaw and told her in California. I just love you so much! You truly are a miracle!

I am going to keep writing you letters so that you might know of my love for you when you some day read them! Please know that whatever you do, I am so in love you with and I am the proudest mommy in the whole wide world!!!

Love,
Your biggest fan,
Mommy 


Monday, January 27, 2014

Hello to a New Life!

Last year came and went with many changes. I got married on 12-12-12. My baby was born 8-15-13 and my husband and I became separated on 9-11-13. E-Mae is now 5 months old and we have been doing great! At the moment, we live with my parents, Nama and Bampa. It's pretty fun here. I have a lot of help and E-Mae has more love than many babies do. She is surrounded by it! What have I been doing? Other than raising E-Mae, I have been teaching myself how to crochet, helping around the house and trying to find ways to pay the bills. I am going to start posting my successes and failures here so maybe people can learn from them. Hopefully I can help you too!!!